These days, been busy.. Haven't update much cos i was mostly writing in my own diary... But i guess it's time i should update my friends.

Did i say anything about Alvin yet? The origin of the story is damn long... and it got a bit complicated, but it's all alright now. It's cool cos after like 1 and a half years, i finally found someone whom i quite like.

At first he really quite bai chi (idiot) , dunno how to go after girls at all -_- Now, we're just hanging out, dating and such lol. He's quite an introvert, so at first nothing much to say. Until we went to find our friends and walked from East Coast to Siglap. It was interesting cos we didn't know where is it also, then we just talked and asked ppl along the way.. the walk was like 1 and a half hours lol! then we found an ice cream shop, quite interesting, u can actually mix all the flavours together, and mix like, marshmellows/nuts in and such... yeah. haha and it's affordable.

Last week started my job as a recruit consultant. LOL, i got fired on the 2nd week, but i never felt happier. It was a relief.. that i got myself out of a 3-month contract. The first week i was so stressed up due to performance that i cried. Alvin was like, stunned. lol. We were supposed to meet for dinner. That night i got a little drunk on white wine. so that i can have a better sleep, and stop thinking.

Everyday since then i kept complaining that i feel sian and all... think my colleagues can also see that. So on 2nd week, Thursday i was talking it out with my team leader, and she said by end of 2 weeks if nothing, she would release me from the bond. yeah... Can see that she would feel bad, but i told her she didn't have to.

Sunday going with them, supposed to be staff retreat, but i foretell earlier this week that it'll be my farewell day. haha. This week alot of new recruits came in to join our company, funny thing is i never really chat with them before, and when i just announced casually that it's my last day! they were like, im gonna join u soon manz, i got lobang u wanna work? $9/hr and such haha. Got one even laugh at me that i got fired cos i couldn't hit the target. Frankly speaking, only one person got a job from me in the 2 weeks lol, i sent a few candidates for interview but they didn't make it. so not my fault lo. -_- 

This tues, Boon Hwee's wedding, my teaching colleague, sang "From this moment" by Shania Twain with Theresa, another colleague lol. Luckily never go out of tune.. The rehearsal was a flunk, i even pang seh her at the highest note. hahaha. But the real thing went fine... the food was good manz.

that'll be all for now, attending HT's party soon!

been ages since i last updated, well first i wanna thank all those who came to my bday party! and those who have smsed me wishes and all.. i appreciate it! once i get a hold on those pictures, will email you guys!

ah. nowadays, yup, i should really decide which uni to go and stop just working aimlessly. Anyway, my job will end on 23rd oct, fast huh just about less than 2 months. Sometimes i dread work, but well, today i went, and it all went ok, at least none of the classes made me shout. and i didn't really lose my temper. It feels good. I wonder how long can it last. And just found out the latest piece of SHOCKING news at work. An impossible match, unbelievable.

Been rather sick - down with sorethroat, cough and flu symptoms coming along, think alot of ppl got infected. At least all the teachers i talked to today, got it. ha!

Well. i just feel, i don't know. Maybe i read too many books, too much fantasies? I was thinking that i need an adventure. And how do i go about doing that? Time? Money? it all doesn't seem right for now. I just felt i need something like, something to remember by every year. Or every month. or everyday? (that will be too happening, lol) Then i can look back without regretting that i've not wasted my time doing nothing worth being proud of.

Someday... I hope i'll find an adventure.

Hey there,

Today is my third day of being a relief teacher. maths. co teaching with another relief teacher - who happens to be my pri sch mate. taking the 8 most notorious boys in the class. Almost every teacher in the school knows abt that class's reputation.

I don't have confidence. Those 3 days, i don't know. I can't seem to teach at all. Disruptions and all.. Reminds me to those days in secondary school, I wonder how the teachers managed us. Suddenly think of Ms chua, she can even teach upper sec maths + a maths proved that she really can teach and well.. is very good in maths. haha.

We always think that teaching is easy, in fact, teaching one to one is different from teaching a class or even a group of students. and students who may not have the motivation to learn. how to motivate them? 

Quite stress actually, but iwon't give up so easily, not until i tried my all.. Just to fill you guys in those interesting scenarios in these 3 days:

1st day:

just observe the class, because have not discussed with the first relief teacher to plan. taught 2 of the students behind for their test paper. They usually don't listen in class, one of students damn funny, he was so eager! when i asked him to take out his textbook, he did it immediately and was very keen, then i asked him to listen to the teacher, he was like, u teach us, then i say ok, u take out ur notebook, again he did it so keenly, i thought it was really cute. That's how we were last time.. i guess..... when i go infront to check on other students, he asked me to come back and teach him enough. hahaha.

2nd day:

so we decided to split up the 8 boys from the class, though i actually mentioned to put some of them back there, but the other teacher thought that it would disrupt the class and slow them down.. so ya.. i told them the rules, not to use vulgarities (yes, sec one only and they speak like nobody business), etc.. End of the day, i realised, they really stopped using vulgarites, only i used. Because my markers dun have ink, and i don't have any others, i was like "this marker sux". they were like orh horrrrrrrrrr teacher u scold vulgarity (damn.. sux is like a common word for us). And i would go like.. "sorry lah..." haha.. and i teach them something wrong. so i was kanna "lousy teacher". ok, i really need to revise.

3rd day:

tried to ammend the mistake by going through my mistake for that question. today all was chaotic, only 1 listens to me, and the other is quiet. the rest talk talk talk. and we were in the library, cos i got no where else to teach them. another teacher was there. so embarrassing, the whole time i was scolding them and all that. until left 5 mins, i just left them alone there to wake up their idea. (of course i left only when it's like 5 mins). so i just stand outside my staffroom, just to make sure when they come down, they don't loiter around the school. they just stood in front of me, in a line, and keep quiet, but smile sheepishly. i was very fierce, and ask them if they are sorry, some said yes, some just keep quiet and smile. I didn't liek the attitude, the other relief teacher spoke to them, while i spoke to 3 other students in the group in the staff room. I was praising the 2 good ones, and expressing how disappointed i was to the "eager student". He was very unhappy, All 3 of them there, all their faces are very black.

Me: "why u so naughty today?"

him: "naughty then naughty lo."

me: "can you promsie not to be like this anymore?"

him: it's unfair."

me: "why is it unfair?"

him: "Yesterday he also very bad, u never scold him, then today i like that, you say me"

me: "but he changed for the better, he was very quiet and good today. Can you promise me that you will be good from today onwards?"

silence

me: prompt again, can you promise me?

him: barely a whisper (yes)

me: (took like 2 secs to realise that he said yes, it was soo soft) Very good. (they were very surprised that i said these 2 words)

rummage through my bag, pull out 3 pens and "this is for 3 of you."

IMMEDIATELY, i mean it, the faces lighten up, and i do mean lighten up. I was almost shocked at the sudden change of expression.

they were like, "thank you teacher." and i was mumbling, "dont tell the others". But i could tell that they were really pleased and once they got their hands on the pen, they kept their hands busy with the retractable pen.

The relief teacher told me that when he spoke to them, they looked remorse, but don't know how long will it last. (i predict not long, usually i will say them, then 5 secs later, noisy again) But let's hope for the best.

and good luck to me too. I actually feel that i'm not good enough, that's why i can't control them yet. well.. i hope we can get on with it, cos we're behind time for the schedule already.. ahhhhhh.

well.. i'm taking another class also, co-teaching as well, i'll just go around and check on the students while they're doing exercises to see if they need any help. This class is muchhhhhhhh easy to teach. Probably they got a good form teacher to start with..